Real Love Letter to Boyfriend

Honey,

 

Singapore is such as strange place. It is both familiar and unfamiliar. There is this Asian flavor in the air that makes me feel not so far away from home but there is an unfamiliar taste… it feels like nothing is real here. It has no culture, no natural resources, nothing truly theirs that they decided to just build everything from forests to beaches. It's still a nice place though. It's so clean and so secure that I can actually walk at 4am without worrying about my safety.

 

I just walked in the hotel room actually. It's 4am. My roommate isn't here yet. He went out with our other officemates. I am not into barhopping so I decided to just walk the streets of Singapore. It's really interesting. It's so quiet and so serene yet… so cold.

 

And I can't help but think of you especially with a can of Mountain Dew in hand. Honey, I want to soon walk the streets with you. It doesn't matter where as long as I have by my side. When you said you won't be able to come home in January. I cried. I guess I was just disappointed and sad and tremendously scared.

 

I don't usually pray to ask for things. I pray to simply share my thoughts with Him or thank Him for whatever he gave me, good or bad. I don't ask for things because I already feel so blessed. I feel like being able to last through the day and still be in one piece, to just be standing is more than enough. Asking for more is already too much.

 

You were the first thing I asked for in a really long time. The surprising things is that I didn't ask Him to give you to me. I couldn't bring myself to ask that. I just asked, no, begged Him to give you what is best for you, for Him to make you happy and to keep you safe. I told Him that it doesn't matter whether or not I be in your life, I just really really want you to be happy and have someone in your life that will make you as happy as you make me.

 

Then you called to tell me you will not be able to come home in January. I knew I said it wouldn't matter whether or not I be in your life or not but heck, if that was His answer to my prayer then I am in for a really long sadness. But you know what, I also found myself being sure that I will eventually be okay as long as I know you are and always will be happy.

 

And I can't help but think of you especially with a can of Mountain Dew in hand. Honey, I want to soon walk the streets with you. It doesn't matter where as long as I have by my side. When you said you won't be able to come home in January. I cried. I guess I was just disappointed and sad and tremendously scared.

 

I don't usually pray to ask for things. I pray to simply share my thoughts with Him or thank Him for whatever he gave me, good or bad. I don't ask for things because I already feel so blessed. I feel like being able to last through the day and still be in one piece, to just be standing is more than enough. Asking for more is already too much.

 

You were the first thing I asked for in a really long time. The surprising thing is that I didn't ask Him to give you to me. I couldn't bring myself to ask that. I just asked, no, begged Him to give you what is best for you, for Him to make you happy and to keep you safe. I told Him that it doesn't matter whether or not I be in your life, I just really really want you to be happy and have someone in your life that will make you as happy as you make me.

 

Then you called to tell me you will not be able to come home in January. I knew I said it wouldn't matter whether or not I be in your life or not but heck, if that was His answer to my prayer then I am in for a really long sadness. But you know what, I also found myself being sure that I will eventually be okay as long as I know you are and always will be happy.

 

Honey, I do not expect anything now or when we finally see each other. I told you then and I will tell you now… I will not hold you to any of the things you said. What you gave me, what you are giving me is enough but there is one thing now that I will ask of you… please do whatever it takes to get that happiness for yourself and when you are finally there, just drop me a line or text me to tell me that you are finally there… you are finally happy.

 

Baby

Posted on 2013-01-06 11:08:27 by Anonymous  

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