Painful Real Breakup Letter

 

 

It’s the helplessness that gets me.

I know you love me and you know I love you. It’s the kind of love that’s pure, the kind that will not allow you to be put in a situation where you will have to compromise your values, hurt some people that you love, and allow the possibility of you hating yourself for not making the right in the future. It is the kind of love that would rather sacrifice my own happiness, my own sanity, and my own satisfaction from possessing you if it means saving you from the pain.

There are too many people that will get hurt if we go on. Many of these people are the most important to you. If I fight for you, I will be putting you in a position when you will have to choose seeing them get hurt by you and by me just as so we could be together.

If I fight for you, I will be putting you in a position when you will have to deal with the fact that I risked it all but you didn’t or that you risked it all because you couldn’t bear the sight of turning away from me.

There is the uncertainty of the future. We can go away… to a place where no one will know us, where we can start all over again, where we can just be careless and just live… love… laugh but how long can we use that happiness as a shield from the guilt we will feel when the night comes and we start realizing we left so many people behind, people who love and depend on us.

I want so much to be selfish and just take you away from all these drama and complications. I want so much just to run to you and ask you to choose me, choose us because this is our life and we have the right to be happy.

But that’s not the kind of love I have for you. It’s the kind of love that would never allow you to be in a situation when you will make a choice and regret it either way in the end.

So, I’m walking way. I’m making the choice to love you from afar. I’m making the choice to leave so you wouldn’t have to.

Maybe someday, in another lifetime, I will meet you again and both of us will have the kind of love that is selfish enough to never settle for anything less but possession.

Maybe… but for now, just know that I love you… it’s the kind of love that’s pure, the kind that will not allow you to be put in a situation where you will have to compromise your values, hurt some people that you love, and allow the possibility of you hating yourself for not making the right in the future.

That’s why I am saying goodbye.

Posted on 2012-11-08 05:03:36 by RegMcFee  

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