I Miss You: A Love Letter

I miss you constantly… all the time. It doesn’t pass. I wish it does… I usually take a moment waiting for it to pass. I try turning my attention to something else. I work, I write, I run, I exhaust myself to the point of helplessness just as so I will not have enough energy or time to miss you. But it just won’t go away. It takes over or co-exist with everything else inside or positions itself in between everything else. But it doesn’t go away.

I miss youI have never missed anyone this much that it makes my body ache literally. I tried crying. Tears have a magical way of allowing people to feel a little better under different circumstances. That’s useless too. I cry myself to sleep or I cry in the middle of work and I still would miss you with the same intensity, with the same passion, with the same pain. It’s just way too deep that even tears can’t reach it.

I miss you so much that I am starting to hate airports and Dubai and the ocean and the sky and all these spaces between us. I envy everything around you. I envy your car, your bed, your friends, your work, your flat. How come they get to be with you and I don’t? It’s just too unfair. And I hate it.

I struggle to just be ok with it. I try to take control to keep me sane but I only fall more in love with you everyday. It surprises me actually. The way you make me happy is just so outrageously pure and true and simple.

It also scares me. It scares me because I might scare you. And also because these are all too unfamiliar to me. I feel like I’m drowning and flying and happy and delirious and overwhelmed and restless and overjoyed and extremely steady. So certain in this strange situation.

I don’t know what will happen but I do know what I want – you and us together. I want to have you with me and I want to love you everyday for the rest of my life. I don’t know if you would want that but I will do it nonetheless, in which ever way it is convenient for you.

So just please hurry home because I miss you and love you so.

Posted on 2011-06-09 08:33:54 by blythe  

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